With a deep sigh Brian let go of the tension that was sitting inside of him. “Well, didn’t that just go well.” The sarcastic words slipped past his lips before he even thought about them. Beside him, AJ snickered. “Oh, perfectly.” He teased.
Surprisingly there wasn’t any anger in AJ’s voice. Brian turned just enough to look at AJ’s face. There was no anger in his eyes or on his face. Just humor and love. A smile curved Brian’s lips. He found himself responding to AJ’s easy going attitude. The last of his tension faded away. A chuckle built in his throat. “Did you see Kevin’s face when I told him I wasn’t resisting you?”
AJ threw his head back and laughed. He flashed Brian a wide grin. “I thought that vein in his head was gonna burst.”
Helplessly Brian started to laugh. It seemed so normal, so natural, to lean down and give AJ a quick kiss. “I don’t think he expected me to yell back at him.”
“Hell, sugar, I didn’t either! But I do have to say that you’re awfully sexy when you get pissed like that.” A twinkle in AJ’s eyes told Brian exactly how attractive AJ had found it. He felt an answering response inside of him, surprising him. Never before had he found himself so easily turned on by another person, male or female.
Stephen had always been attractive to him, and looking at him had always put those butterflies down in Brian’s stomach. But with AJ sometimes he didn’t even have to look at him. He just had to hear him enter a room, or smell his cologne, or hear his raspy laugh, and chills would run down his spine. Part of him wanted so much to touch, and taste, and see how big the attraction would grow. Yet at the same time he was still terrified that Stephen was right. That he was cold in bed. That AJ would leave him once they were intimate. He didn’t know if his heart could take that.
Something of what he felt must have showed in his eyes because AJ’s face became serious. Their eyes locked, and the emotions that passed between them held them spellbound. Neither could have looked away to save their life.
“I wish I could chase those shadows out of your eyes, sugar.” AJ’s voice was low and soft. It sent chills down Brian’s spine.
He wanted to tell AJ that he already was. That, in so many ways, he was taking the darkness and replacing it with light. AJ’s reaction to his story had taken away a large about of Brian’s sorrow. Most people would have offered words of comfort after hearing what Brian had to say. They might have hugged him, or whispered words of love. But not AJ. He had reacted with fury. Somehow, that meant more to Brian than any kind words ever would have.
To think that AJ had been that furious in defense of him made Brian feel as if he was worth defending. Like he was worthy of loving care. It took that horrible moment that had broken him and cast it in a different light. Instead of feeling sorrow and shame, Brian could see through AJ’s eyes the injustice of it all. The anger that he had been treated that way by someone who was supposed to love him. Witnessing how livid AJ had been gave Brian back some of his confidence. Maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t as worthless as he had thought. Maybe he did deserve to have someone love it. It was a thrilling thought.
But he couldn’t find the words to express his thoughts. They wouldn’t seem to form. So, using that new confidence that AJ had given him, he did the only thing he could think of to show AJ how he made him feel. He leaned in and kissed him.
It wasn’t a quick peck or even a slow and sweet kiss. In it was everything that Brian felt but couldn’t say. AJ instantly reacted, stepping close as he kissed him back with a passion that left Brian staggered. He felt amazed at how easily and quickly AJ was responding to him. It made him feel desirable, which was something he hadn’t felt for a while now.
AJ let go of Brian’s hand so that he could slide his hands around Brian’s waist, pulling him close so that their bodies were pressed tightly together. Automatically Brian laced his hands together behind AJ’s neck and melted into the embrace. He flicked his tongue out, tracing AJ’s warm lips, and was rewarded with a low moan that turned him on even more.
When the two finally pulled apart they were both breathing heavy. AJ dropped his head down, resting his forehead against Brian’s shoulder. His voice was lower and slightly shaky when he spoke. “God, you make me forget myself. It’s like I lose all ability to think when you touch me.”
Hearing those raspy words sent another thrill through him. He couldn’t help asking “Really?”
AJ lifted his face so that he could look Brian in the eyes. For the first time, ever, Brian saw past every shield that AJ ever put in place. He held nothing back in his eyes, letting it all come forth so that Brian could see the truth of his words. In those warm chocolate eyes was more love than Brian had ever thought possible, and a lust that was bigger than anything he had ever seen. With one look, AJ was showing Brian his heart and soul. Showing him the truth of everything he had been saying. “My God…” Brian whispered.
“You’re my everything, Brian. There will never be anyone for me but you. Being around you makes my heart race. When you touch me like this, everything in my mind just melts. I ache for you in ways I never have for anyone else. You kiss me and my body is on fire. Hell, you walk into a room and I ache for wanting you.”
There was no doubting the sincerity of his words, not when it was all right there in his eyes. “Alex.” It was all he could manage to say. But that one word said so much.
They leaned in at the same time, lips seeking one another with more urgency than they had before. This time they didn’t hold back their passion, neither one of them, but let it flow freely between them. AJ was pulling him close, his grip almost crushing, and yet Brian could only wish that he would hold him tighter.
When they pulled back this time, Brian knew what he wanted. Keeping his eyes on AJ’s he took a step back, saw the shock flash for a second, and he took AJ’s hand. As he started to lead him back to the bedroom the shock in AJ’s eyes changed back to love, and darkened with lust. He didn’t ask Brian if he was sure, if this was what he really wanted. There was no need. Brian had never felt surer of anything in his entire life.
He chased away the doubts that Stephen had put in his mind. There was no room for him in this bed, between them, on this night. This was about him and AJ. He would let nothing else mar the beauty of their first time together. Of this first night, when he finally recognized and admitted his love, and the passion was growing. This was a night for them.
There was no rush. Brian wanted to take his time and savor in the sensations running through him. This seemed so special, so right. They stopped beside the bed, the room lit only by moonlight. It seemed appropriate.
With a gentleness far deeper than anything he’d known he possessed, Brian leaned in and captured AJ’s lips for a soul shattering kiss. His hands rested on AJ’s hips, just as AJ’s rested on his. He slid his hands under the hem of AJ’s shirt, up to the warm skin underneath, just barely touching. It felt wonderful. He could feel the softness of AJ’s skin, and the way his stomach seemed to quiver under Brian’s hands.
Pulling back, Brian looked into AJ’s eyes as he grabbed the hem of his shirt and pulled up. AJ lifted his arms, allowing the shirt to be taken up and off before it was tossed to the floor. Brian smiled as AJ did the same to him.
He couldn’t look away from AJ’s face; even as the younger man looked down to admire the skin revealed. Lust made his eyes even darker. A joy tickled Brian’s spine when he saw AJ lift his hands and place them against his stomach and he realized that they were shaking. Then he shivered as AJ’s hands traced up and over his scar. He shivered again when AJ leaned in and first kissed that scar and then ran his tongue over it. Pleasure shot through him.
“It devastated me when you went in for this.” AJ whispered huskily. He kissed that puckered skin again, letting his lips trail over it. His breath tickled against the light moisture from his kisses. “I was terrified that something would happen to you and I’d never be able to look into your beautiful eyes again. Or hear your laugh.”
“You’ve wanted me for that long?” The thought floored him.
AJ trailed his kisses further up, over Brian’s collarbone and to his neck. It felt wonderful. He put his hands on AJ’s hips again, sliding over that soft skin. “I’ve wanted you for a long time, Brian. I just never thought I’d be able to have you.”
“And now you do.”
“Yes.” AJ moved his mouth, nuzzling just underneath Brian’s ear, causing his body to shiver. “Now I do.”
Very lightly AJ pushed against him, backing him into the bed. Brian went willingly. He allowed AJ to lay him back, planting his heels to help scoot up into the bed. Then AJ was over him, bracing himself on one arm. His other hand rested on Brian’s hip, lightly stroking the skin there. He looked down with those piercing eyes of his. “You are so beautiful.”
Brian lifted his hands to run them up and down AJ’s back. “So are you.” He whispered back. It was the truth. No one had ever looked more beautiful to him than AJ did right at that moment. Not even Stephen. Never once had he captivated Brian the way that AJ was.
Dipping his head back down, AJ attached his lips to Brian’s collarbone, nipping and sucking the skin there. That familiar ache started low down in his loins, growing with each brush of AJ’s lips, each nip of his teeth. When AJ went lower, flicking his tongue across an already heard nipple, Brian convulsively dug his fingers into AJ’s back, his nails biting into the skin, eliciting a low growl from AJ.
AJ took the hard nipple in his mouth, sucking on it as his hand came up to roll the other between his fingers. Soon he had Brian arching and gasping underneath him. His nipples had always been so sensitive. AJ switched his mouth and hand so that he was now sucking on that other nipple, drawing it to the same tortured point as the other.
“God, Alex…” Brian was losing the ability to think. He tried to return the touches, but AJ was plastering their bodies together so that Brian could only stroke the skin of his back, his arms. “I want to touch you too, Alex.”
“Patience, sugar.” AJ chuckled against Brian’s skin, flicking his tongue out as he traced the lines down his stomach. “Tonight I want to be about you. I want to put to rest all your fears.”
Then he was kissing along the abdominal muscles that ran down underneath his jeans, stopping just at the top of his pants before moving to the other side. When he had Brian writhing beneath him he moved back up. Brian eagerly met his kisses, loving the feel as skin pressed against skin. There was so much sensation running through him that he was having a hard time putting anything together in his mind. All he knew was he wanted him.
While they kissed AJ’s hips started a slow grinding motion that had Brian gasping against his mouth. He grinded back up at him, trying to get more of that sensation. Even through the jeans it felt amazing. Without realizing it his hands were clenching and unclenching on AJ’s shoulders while their kiss grew more urgent.
“Please…” Brian found himself begging. He slid his hands down, letting them dip into the back of AJ’s jeans and under his boxers. He cupped his ass, pulling their hips together. All thoughts of savoring the evening were sliding from his head. He wanted him more than he had ever wanted anything or anyone. It was like a fire inside of him, burning brighter and brighter.
One of AJ’s hands traveled down even as he was nipping at Brian’s bottom lip gently. Brian never felt his jeans unsnap or unzip, but AJ’s hand was suddenly sliding under the material, brushing against the head of his throbbing erection. He moaned into AJ’s mouth and his body jerked, trying to get more.
AJ chuckled, their lips still pressed against one another so that Brian seemed to swallow the sound. He actually whimpered a little when AJ pulled back, resting on his knees on the bed. He pulled his hand out and reached for the top of Brian’s jeans and boxers. Slowly he started to slide them off, kissing the skin on Brian’s legs as it was revealed.
Without AJ’s body over him Brian had nothing to hold on to, so he fisted his hands in the bedspread. AJ was driving him mad with need. His erection sprang free from his clothes, slapping against his stomach. He gasped at the cool air in the room brushed against it. But AJ didn’t touch him there. He continued to trial his kisses down, over his knees and his calves, until his pants were completely gone and he was naked on the bed.
Only then did AJ start to kiss back up, taking his time to taste and savor every inch of exposed skin. When he came close to that one area that Brian wanted him to touch the most he still did not. He kissed all around him, taking his sweet time working in to what they both wanted.
Brian was blind to everything around him. His eyes stared, unseeing, up at the ceiling as his body twisted and writhed on the bed underneath AJ’s warm mouth. When finally, oh sweet God, AJ touched his lips to Brian’s swollen head, his hips jumped up off the bed and a whimper slid past his lips. AJ chuckled and flicked his tongue out, tasting the precum that had leaked out.
He let his tongue slide down, tracing against the vein that ran on the underside of his cock, down to the base and back up again. Once he reached the top he took just Brian’s tip into his mouth, suckling the skin. Brian gasped and clutched the bedspread harder in an effort not to reach down and grab AJ’s head. “Alex, please…Alex…” His name fell from Brian’s lips like a prayer.
With a small smile on his face, AJ answered that prayer. Sucking ever so gently he slid his mouth further and further down, opening his throat to take him in until he was totally buried in AJ’s mouth. The feeling was amazing. Brian’s hips moved of their own accord, seeking more. Needing more. He barely heard his soft begging, but even when he did he didn’t care.
Agonizingly slow, AJ started to move his head, sliding up and back down, suckling him all the while, letting his tongue run around him. It was too much. It wasn’t enough. Hands on his hips held him down so that he couldn’t buck but his body still tried.
Pleasure filled him, spilling over his body in waves that threatened to take him under. Nothing had ever felt like this before. He was lost in the ocean of it all. Gradually AJ picked up his pace, bobbing his head faster and faster, taking more and more from him until Brian was breathless and yet panting on the bed. He could feel his orgasm starting way down in his toes, seeming to build like a bright light inside of him. He couldn’t speak to warn AJ. But his lover seemed to know.
If anything, it spurred AJ on. He sucked more and more, taking Brian in deep with each bob of his head. The pleasure grew, that light filling him, until AJ slid down again and sucked, hard, just as Brian hit the back of his throat. It was more than his body could take. With a strangled cry he stiffened, digging his heels into the bed and fisting his hands in the sheets as his body seemed to explode in flashes of light.
AJ stayed where he was, swallowing every drop that Brian offered until there was nothing left to take, nothing more he could give. Only then did he pull away, letting Brian’s cock slip from his mouth. He licked his lips as he slid upwards.
He captured Brian’s lips together, and it was terribly erotic to taste himself in AJ’s kiss. Those warm hands were sliding over his skin, touching every inch of him. Even though he had just came, Brian felt his body start to respond again. That amazed him. The need was growing in his belly all over again, bringing those sensations back to life as AJ’s tongue dueled with his, tasting and teasing.
With frantic hands Brian reached down, taking hold of AJ’s jeans. His hands were shaking as he unbuttoned them and pushed to slide them off of his hips. Together they managed to get them down enough that AJ could kick them off. Brian spread his legs, letting AJ slide between them, gasping as skin met skin.
“Now, now…” Brian chanted, rolling his hips. He couldn’t stand it anymore. He needed to feel AJ inside of him. Needed it more than anything in the world. AJ seemed to sense this and wasted no time in reaching down to rub a hand over himself, using his own precum as a lubrication. Once he was ready he spread Brian’s knees and positioned himself.
Their eyes locked as he started to slide in. Brian gasped at the mix of pain and pleasure. He couldn’t hold AJ’s gaze and squeezed his eyes shut as the burning filled him. He took steady, deep breaths as AJ pushed all the way in, stopping only when he was fully buried. In the darkened room Brian could hear AJ’s labored breaths.
Kisses rained down on his face as AJ tried to soothe him. Slowly the burn faded and Brian moved his hips to let AJ know he was ready. He heard the younger man gasp at feeling Brian moving. Then he was moving, slow and steady thrusts that had Brian reaching toward that light again.
Pants and gasps filled the room, echoing in their ears. Hands ran over skin, needing to touch, even as lips joined together. The need had grown in them both until it was almost a frantic thing. Their bodies were pushing and pulling, reaching for that light together, taking them higher and higher.
Brian felt his second orgasm of the night building quicker than the first. He knew AJ was close as well by the way he was thrusting; slightly more desperate and uneven. He hit that one spot deep inside that had Brian’s brain exploding and a gasp tearing out of his throat.
That light built again until he was blinded by it. It filled him until he felt as if his body should burst with the strength of it. Then it did. His hips jerked with the force of it and his back arched as he threw his head back against the pillow and his hands clenched around AJ’s biceps. He screamed AJ’s name as his world exploded in a burst of light and sensation and love. Vaguely he heard AJ give a shout and a growl as he, too, lost control.
Sweaty, the two collapsed together, rolling slightly sideways as AJ slid from Brian’s body with a gasp. Limbs tangled together. They lay face to face on the pillow, panting from the force of their orgasms.
Brian could think of nothing else to say other than “I love you, Alex.”
“I love you too, Brian.”