Bri

 

 

 

You are too, don't deny it. Ha ha ha. You know, the more I sit here and think about that comment, the more I think how much I'd like to...well, we'll save that for later. So I suppose I should try to be good, at least until I get home. But it's so hard for me. Hee, btw, that pun was totally intended.

 

 

So, that long on your part, huh? Seriously? You never said anything! How on earth did Nick keep that a secret, though? I wish you would have spoken up a long time ago. Think of it, we could have had more time together. But, who knows, maybe you weren't meant to say anything until now. I mean, if I just admitted it to myself while here, what might have happened if you had told me about it before now? I might have fucked up everything. That would've sucked.  I don't think that it would have changed anything, at least where my problem is concerned. I wasn't ready to change yet. I was in a dark place, Bri. I don't think anyone could have reached me before I was ready. Point is, I'm ready now, and I'm trying hard now.

 

 

 

Sorry about the shaky writing. I'm having a helluva craving right now, and let me tell you, detox is not the most fun thing. I can come home soon, I think I'll be ready and my months up end of next week, but they don't want me to come home alone. They think that having a person to help me would be 'beneficial to your recovery'. I was gonna go stay with Ma. But now, I was wondering, if I might come stay in my room at your place? We could, talk.

 

Hmm, I find myself actually feeling shy. Nervous, too, that you'll say no. That's a new sensation for me. I'm not quite sure I like it, to be honest. I'm much happier when I'm being cocky. Yep. I do believe so. Makes life more simple when I'm always right, and everyone else learns to accept it. ;)

 

Ok. Enough of the jabber jabber. I'm going to go get ready for grub time. Wonder what we're eating today? Probably something they THINK is edible, but in reality, when you're detoxing, a lot of things just plain taste like shit. I feel like I've got this taste in my mouth that you get when you forget to brush your teeth, you know the one? Like my teeth are hairy. YUCK.

 

With that visual, I bid you adieu

 

 

XO!

 

 

 

Alex

 

 

*****

 

 

 

 

Alex,

 

 

Has anyone told you lately exactly how gross you are? I can't say that I know the hairy teeth feeling, seeing as how I don't forget to brush my teeth. But, good thing to know about you for the future, eh? I'll have to make sure I always have a spare toothbrush at the house for you so you can never 'forget' to do it. Yuck.

 

 

Bypassing that, I hope you realize that you're a dork for being nervous. Of course you can stay with me. I have those guestrooms for a reason, you know. They're not just for looking at. Plus, I think it'd be good if we did get that much time to talk, you know. Kevin said that management is agreeing to one more month, but only cause Kevin jumped their shit for quite a while, and threatened to have all of us walk. Can't you feel the love??? I hope you do. Honest, cause it's there.

 

 

So, back to the topics at hand. Hm, first one I wanna say something about. Don't worry when your handwriting is shaky. I may not be able to personally understand what a craving is like, but I would never dream of insulting you because you're having one, or mocking you, or anything like that. Please, don't worry about them.

 

 

Second, I konw I already adressed it up there, but I gotta say again: Don't be nervous I am so excited by the idea of you staying here, and thrilled that I actually am going to have a chance with you, and that you feel about me the way I do about you!!!!!

 

 

Ahem. Calm. Ok, so, third. I have to say this. You ARE a cocky little shit, you know.  An I hate to break it to you, but you are not always right. I am. :) So, the sooner you realize that, the better off we'll be. Maybe, if you practice your bowing while you're there, you'll have it down just in time for you to come home. Seeing as how I'm the greatest ever, it's only right you bow down to me.

 

 

Well, I'm off to visit my court jester. You know how Nick gets when you run behind. It's like the world has ended! An I still gotta mail this letter on my way out, lol!

 

 

Ok, hon, I look forward to seeing you soon! x's and o's

 

 

Brian